Pangur Ban

I and Pangur Ban, my cat,
'Tis a like task we are at;
Hunting mice is his delight,
Hunting words I sit all night.

Better far than praise of men
'Tis to sit with book and pen;
Pangur bears me no ill will;
He, too, plies his simple skill.

'Tis a merry thing to see
At our task how glad are we,
When at home we sit and find
Entertainment to our mind.

Oftentimes a mouse will stray
Into the hero Pangur's way;
Oftentimes my keen thought set
Takes a meaning in its net.

'Gainst the wall he sets his eye
Full and fierce and sharp and sly;
'Gainst the wall of knowledge I
All my little wisdom try.

When a mouse darts from its den.
O how glad is Pangur then!
O what gladness do I prove
When I solve the doubts I love!

So in peace our tasks we ply,
Pangur Ban, my cat and I;
In our arts we find our bliss,
I have mine, and he has his.

Practice every day has made
Pangur perfect in his trade ;
I get wisdom day and night,
Turning Darkness into light.'

- an unknown ninth century monk

Everyone has faith in God though everyone does not know it. For everyone has faith in himself and that multiplied to the nth degree is God. The sum total of all that lives is God. We may not be God, but we are of God, even as a little drop of water is of the ocean.

When you develope an infatuation for someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky for example. Now in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, its just what you've been searching for all these years.

The only downer is everyones got the same idea, we all travel thousands of miles just to watch tv and check into somewhere with all the comforts of home , and you gotta ask yourself , whats the point of that?

I told myself spreading news was part of a traveller's nature, but if I was being completely honest, I was just like everybody else: shit-scared of the great unknown. Desperate to take a little piece of home with me

-quotes from the beach.

Denny Crane!
Alan Shore!
Leaders of men!
With bulleyes on our asses!

the meaning of life is that it ends

It is a feeling of nothingness.
Something that felt lost after so many years of holding on to it.
Never had I expect this outcome nor felt it should head this way.
Why do things become bitter and twisted when you thought the worst had already happened to you.
You turn your ears to hear happiness but none of it seemed like delight to you.
You then wonder why such matters would happen to them.
You then ponder whether such situations are a matter of sympathy on your part but then you are taken back, disgusted by everything that had escaped your ears.
This is when you want to leave it all behind, to escape of rather hiding from such unfair treatment.
I do not know what I want to hear feel or touch anymore.
Why go for something when it will just not return the amount of love or hope you put into it.
It is redundant, repugnant, and unquestionable and I feel too weak to go through it all.

i dare do all that may become a man
who dares more is none.

conceal me what i am and be my aid
for such disguise as haply shall become the form of my intent.

remember remember the 5th of november
the gun powder treason and plot
i know of no reason why the gun powder treason
should ever be forgot.

- V for Vendetta

chios chios chios oh my lovely chios
will you wait on me till i am cured
till the end of my days
when i put away my youthful days
i will want to settle
enjoying my afternoon sound of boiling kettle
in a garden
till i meet God in heaven

There were so many times when I wanted to act like a brat. To be spoilt, to be throwing my weight around at issues that I think would have done me injustice. But I could never bring myself to do it.
I ask myself why.
Is it because I am too weak?
Ego-listic?
Care about how I would portray myself?
Afraid of being ignored?
Viewed upon as unreasonable?
I often console myself that I do not bother about such matters.
But my mind just responded with I am not like that.
Often in life we are made to do things out of our own character and attitude just because we want to be heard, felt or seen as but that makes us monsters. If it requires you to act rashly or foolish then you are just a smuck.
Be who you are.
Show your true self.
Do not compromise.
Do not let anyone thwart with who you are.
Do not merely just do it because you want to show others that you are strong.
Let the strong be weak and the weak be strong.

Sometimes in life things from the past that you try to forget or hate comes back to haunt you
It is so unfair
Things that you dread
Things that you hope would vanish and never ever to be reminded of again
Things that would creep into your mind and taunt you the entire day
Making your life miserable
But it was such a long time ago
As long as I could ever remember
Those periods of brain washing
I look at my life now
And back then
Then I realized I was different
I am stronger
I am wiser
This issue is obsolete
I could tackle the problem
It must not affect me
It has been so long
God please help me as I journey through this
To give me the courage that I need
To show that it is I who survives!

No longer there
No more such feelings of peace and warmth
I really wished I was older and wiser during then
To learn all those valuable lessons from you
Those lazy afternoons when you sit on that red sofa
Waiting to see if I would show interest
That one day you know I will
But you kept waiting
And waiting
And waiting
But I never came to you
But u were still there
And I believe that you are still around
I just want you to know
That those moments
Are dearest to my heart
That if I were to be there now
I would have made used of every moment
To see you
To feel you
To know you
To study you
All I did was to play around the backyard
To explore tunnels and forests
But you knew
You knew that there were more
More important things to learn then
I did not know
But you knew
And that’s how it is
Gone

Have you ever discovered something spectacular while not intentionally doing it?

I was cooking dinner for myself today when I decided to try this new noodle recipe. After 20mins, it came out fine but I misjudged the quantity of the ingredients as well as the type. Some of the stuff was added too much while others were lacking in flavor.

It tasted neither here nor there and I really could not eat it anymore. So I decided to throw in the fish and the chicken with the remainder of the food.

However when the fish and the chicken were done, it tasted fabulous. It was in between tom yum and sweet sour pork style. The base was not good but the it infused the meat and it brought out new wonders. I was proud of myself.

Now if only I had remembered my any oh how recipe…..oh bother….

5 places that i want to visit for now

1. Hike the mountains of Nepal (Himalayan mountains)
2. Explore Vietnam
3. Spend one night in the desert of Morocco
4. Surf at Bondi beach in Sydney harbour
5. Visit the Holy Land

6 people that i want to meet for now

1. Ian Wright
2. Anthony Bourdain
3. Booby Chinn
4. Janet Hsieh
5. Bob Blumer
6. Jennifer Adams

i was doing Groceries today when i realized just how much i was enjoying myself.
rows and rows of herbs and Spices ready for me to cook later for dinner...
it's a sense of delight to me, rather than a chore.
all the planning and choosing. thinking of even planting my own veggies at home...
misenplace excites me....as if i were choosing weapons for a battle...
it's the Adrenaline of being able to control your own life, not only in the kitchen.

It was underneath then
Devils crippling on beneath the surface where no one could see or smell them
But it consumed me inside out
And as hard as I tried I could not find my way out
To think God had done me wrong
Or it may be that I am not strong

Avoiding paths which led to doom
To find the alternative one looking gloom
Do I lack the key
Or did I lack panache

I thought all was better
Had I realized I made a blunder
As foolish as I am
To allow stupidity to drive me tandem

I had the whole world in my memory
But I gave it always to debauchery
Till now do I fear looking at my reflection
To be greeted with points of my action

When will it stop
To allow me to freely hop
To feel fully of God’s splendor
Will I wonder?

they laugh at me cause i am different.
i laugh at them cause they are the same.

nobody is perfect
i am nobody
hence i am perfect

we can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come

back from bali and here's how it went!!!

Day 1: Singapore to Jakarta airport(transit) to Bali airport

now we were all rather excited as we had been planning this trip for nearly 5 weeks, dipak, roche, lyon and myself. at the airport i was rather happy to meet barry as it was quite some time since i met up with him. he was suppose to fly air asia i think but we were on garuda.(to the guys: the BEST flight in the air)
touched down and we immediately threw out stuff down and headed for the beach. it was fabulous!!! and it was not as hot as we expected. after we went shopping for beach wear and had a quick dinner.
when it was night time we were all ready to explore kuta(the beach where we stayed). we headed to double 6 where it was only scheduled to open after midnight hence we headed down to hard rock. met barry again this time on LEGIAN street(which happened to be our future night spot from that day forth.
the entire day we were kept being pushed with magic mushroom(a soft core drug), prostitutes, transport and marijuana. we were scared at first when this particular dude came up to us and held on to us in a cab to sell drugs. but after a few days we were rather immune to it.

Day2: Sea Sports

Day 2 was filled with sea activities such as fly fish, Turtle Island and scuba diving. Scuba diving was rather tiring to the mouth as we had to bite on to this rubbery thing which provided us oxygen. After all this we were starving and we managed to find Babi Guling. Yes you seen it right PORK RICE. This dish is the best in Bali and if you were to ever go there please do not miss it. The way they roasted their pig was spectacular and together with the other spices and dishes it was well worth the calories. In the night we headed down to Paddy’s in Legian street to club and the club scene there is very different. We are allowed in with shorts, slippers and bare bodied.

Day 3: Ubud: volcano island, monkey forest, rice fields

Ubud was lovely. The peacefulness and tranquility of that place together with the feeling of being with the locals in their village was amazing. The thing about me is that i love visiting the asian countries villages and really venture and try to get lost among the people. It gives me the thrills and the spirit to ask my way around and even try the local food and practices that they do. Nothing else could substitute that feeling. During the volcano hike, there was this particular little girl, she was dirty and smelly and looked rather hungry. She came to us holding all the key chains and necklaces, wanting us to buy them. My heart just sank, looking at this girl and looking back at me in Singapore, what more did this girl one other than just food and shelter.
After all the cultural visits, we headed down to the village to do some shopping followed by a fantastic seafood dinner by the sunset.

Day 4: Water rafting, Sunset

We went for water rafting today and the water was freezing. By then most of us were down with a slight flu because of Lyon and I was shivering most of the ride. We passed by incredible waterfalls as well as Buddha carved stone from the mountains and noticed that there were a few people who actually lived there. Amazing isn’t it, with nothing but the flowing stream and trees.
After all these, roche and I went to change money as we ran out of it. Believe me what we saw at the money changer was magic, real magic. After changing a particular sum of Sing dollars we were given back their currency with the exchange rate of 7225(which is rocket high). We were delighted, they counted the money once, and we each counted it once so that means thrice altogether. As we gathered the money and counted it again we were short change of the rate and were actually given 6900. The thing is how was that possible when both of us counted it again and again and the money just slipped away. Although we found out later on that they took commission but the fact that money slipped out of their hands and into ours with notes disappearing was mind-blowing. We just looked at each other and smiled at the country.
Later in that evening we managed to catch the sunset and it was amazing, making me think of the song “SUNSET” by café Del mar. We wander around the beach and just fool around until it was pitch black.
After that we went for massages, shopping, a midnight stroll and clubbed. I love BALI to bits.

Day 5: Street Shopping

Today was a day we decided to use the hotel facilities, explore the Kuta streets(the back ends). We made a couple of friends with the aussie kids at the hotel pool and ended up playing the water slide, pool volley ball till we got scolded by the life guards. We were too “havoc” by going down(7 of us) at once into the slide. What a loser! After we went out to the streets getting last minute gifts, temporary tattoos, I even wanted to braid my hair but it was too short and I managed to find my fisherman pants that I had been looking for in this entire trip. We had more Babi Guling, rode behind a motor cycle IN THE STREETS OF BALI and continued our midnight shopping.

Day 6: Bali-Singapore

It was a rather sad day for us as we left Bali and headed home but we could only look for more such adventures in life. We had Balinese food for the last time before checking out and heading to the airport. We really made a big mess of our room and even broke a stone table. Our toilet smelled, our beds messy, and everything that you could possibly find in the hotel room was on the floor.
GOODBYE BALI.

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Travel philosophy

"If you spend too much time thinking about it, then you miss it! Things come. Keep looking, meet different people, and exchange ideas. There is no rule."

"The first step is in your head. So don't think about it, buy a flight ticket tomorrow and then worry about it on the plane. This is the hardest step."

"There is no secret; there is nothing mysterious about a rucksack. All you need is money, passport, and a change of clothes. Forget the rest."

-Ian Wright

fear causes you to hesitate and hesitation causes the worst of your fears to come true.

probably some of you have heard this song on travel and living- a beautiful life

i just think it is such an awesome song and it reminds us really what a beautiful life it is.
just wanna share it with you guys
here is the link if you guys want to listen to it-
http://www.mastersource.com/project/MJttdOHicV0f-PRbIjp14g

Got yourself a ticket to the rest of your life
So starting here and now, find the strength somehow to spread your wings and fly
And who could ask for more than this precious time
With you at my side on this rollercoaster ride, the one thing I know for sure is that

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

Everyday's a new start so give it a try
When all of your predictions, your loves and your commitments
Keep watching the time pass by
And who could ask for more than another chance
You get one everyday, so start and lead the way
Step through another door singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

These days I'm lost in the beauty of life
So I'm singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is

Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is.

and the night shall be filled with music and the cares that infest the day
one shall fold their tents like the arabs and as silently steal away
- longfellow
in context to my desire of playing sand with my feet in the deserts of morocco, and lying on my back looking up into the heavens.

a strong man stands up for himself
a stronger man stands up for others
- ben from barnyard

decided to have some pasta after my gym session just the other night
i particularly enjoyed that pasta as it was simple and done with fresh ingredients
however i was not happy with my meal and let me tell you why
the reason why i or anyone of you go back to that same restaurant is because you like what the chef prepares for you.
i used to have scallops, black olives and huge prawns topped with generous amount of sauce and toppings. that night the scallops were replaced by soft pieces of crabstick skin, tasteless and repugnant. the fish was execrable and hard to bite into.
i can see that the chef was trying to be creative and change the ingredients and the style of the pasta. the red and green peppers were cooked differently. other sauces were added to my meal and the prawns were done differently, boiled instead of the usual baked. other veggies replaced the black olives that i love to chew on.
i do not want any of these, i do not want some chef changing the meal i enjoy every thursday evening to be any different from other thursdays that i would be having it. i want the exact same dish that i had last week or the week before. i want the exact same way my prawns were done before, the same topping that i had the last time or the same ingredient that i grew to love as i had that first meal.
the feeling of not being able to get what you used to enjoy is horrible. please do not change any of that, a good chef is meant to be constant with the same style a dish is being prepared and not come up with brilliant ideas for the meal. if you do something different put it on the menu and call it something else for consumers to order.

sleepless nights with an incubus haunting me
a feeling of animosity with every look in the mirror
will my neverdown heart tantamount to the ostensily scars i have
or will i achieve epiphany to all these
will i be Irrevocably strong against this insidious enemy
i just pray that God will hear my prayers
please i just want to get it right this time
give me one more chance

this video is linked to my last post - got this from one of my friend's facebook -hope you guys get what i was trying to say earlier

recently i went to an ordinary restaurant to have a decent meal. it was nothing fancy and no staff were there to treat me as a protagonist. it was just a simple walk in and order and just eat and talk to your friends kind. however the place was off a certain standard and clean and well known for its delicacy. at the end of it when the bill came it was over a 3 digit figure. i thought to myself, oh fine nice atmosphere comfortable seats great food and decent music. then as i paid the bill(heart aches as i am a poor man) i realized- is it right for someone to charge this much for food?
basically to me i believe food is a necessity and everyone is entitled to have whatever they feel like eating, be it shushi, dim sum, french cuisine or italian pasta. to charge someone so much for just a meal like that, what's up with one's conscious!
ok you might argue the difference between seating in a coffeeshop and a restaurant but at the end of the day food is just food- stop charging so much money because your food taste nicer then the normal but just use it to promote good tasting food.
i am not an altruist but i am cynical when it comes to such matters. for those who upon reading this post say what a loser, one has to pay good money to have good food then i tell u guys do not be a hypocrite the next time you complain about the steepness of the price of a meal or the extra charges that make up 20% of your total bill.
cant a person who lives in a single room flat be able to have the same meal as a person who lives in a 3 storey house? what you think we are living in the medieval times where KINGS and QUEENS exist. food should not and never be something to differentiate between people who have money or not.

was walking home from dinner today when i decided to visit the sky garden around my house area. taking the lift up and then looking out into the city was really great. from up there, everything below seemed so small, so insignificant. so unharmed, as though everything was at peace with one other. the faint car horns, the bus engines running, bicycle bells were only heard as a tinkle. everything seemed so quiet.
and then i asked God, is this what you do everyday? sit on your throne and be ignorant to our pleads and cries. hearing just the tiny drops of sound on earth and not be bothered.
after awhile i took the lift back down and headed home. while walking back i looked up at where i was earlier and it was as though God shot me back with a reply. i soon realized how high i was just now and everything above seems so far away and so complicated. there were so many webs to unravel and i felt sooo small just comparing myself to the above. now i know what he meant. who am i to question what he does and how little do i know of his mysteries and work.

i managed to hear from someone in my gym that in smallville season 6 JUSTICE LEAGUE appears in it
as i am such a huge fan of DC and marvel i would like to share the videos with you guys...enjoy
part 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVU4IzexGFk
part 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEnWXOCsp2g
part 3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdILQxTTdFA
part 4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8_0eXwuYEA
part 5
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTBO7DGQmN4

superheroes

everyone is a super hero. i believe in super heroes. i believe in Superman, i believe in Spiderman. in this 20th century who is not one?
look at the way we travel from one place to another with such ease. look at the way technology has evolved, we talking to another person millions of miles away.
someone from a thousand years ago would bow to us if not call us gods.
however in times like ours, how do we make sure we confront it responsibly. do we have the right values of human life, the very virtues our fathers and mothers have taught us to obey since we were young. is it enough? human rights? human dignity? human immortality?
the ramifications or rather the reflection of our actions or words or decision made towards others. superheroes(learders, parents) must sometimes learn that it is the marks you leave along the side of the road, the impressions that people have of you is what counts.
quoted by mahatma gandh- i am a hindu as well as a muslim, a christian as well as a jew or a buddhist. we learn that those among us that are not so colourful are heroes and those that are quite vivid are flawed and quite ordinary. no matter how powerful u are, it is the new bards that will be leading us and bringing us to whatever we teach them now.

on my way home today, along the curb at the side of the road, i tried to balance myself on that probably 3inch? pavement. cars zoom passed me at the side and there must have been alot of hornings but i had my earpiece on. it was sooo dangerous the whole incident when i looked back at it but in the short moment i was enjoying myself. i could have been knocked down if i had lost balance and lose my life but at that time i did not care. all i cared was just balancing on that narrow pavement. it was fun and i was reminded of my primary school days balancing on the balance walk in the fitness corner.

getting closer?
sometimes getting to know an individual better invites the surprise of that person's bad side. am i escaping from reality or am i too afraid to face it. can i live with just seeing faces brushing me by and pretending that all is good. call me an anomaly because of the fear that i have. but can u blame me for i have put up with too much rubbish and insincerity.

why do i keep worrying about what will happen the next day or why do i keep worrying about what will happen to something that i have no complete control over or something that is evitable.
sometimes events will get us so planned out and worried that we lose focus of what we are having now or what we are living NOW.
the past- u cannot change it
the future- depends on what you do now
so u see whatever future u want depends on what u actually do now and what u live in the moment for....
dun get to carried forward but just learn how to take it all in and enjoy every moment that u are in now....

sometimes it is what u least expect and want that really clings on to you in life
u wait and build your hope up on things that u expect to be hopeful
u get disappointed and keep moving on to find a circle to be a sub-set of
yet once in a while u feel lost or alone or sad or rejected
in these times u really get to find out about oneself and that it was never better u and them but u living within the different circles of truths and wants, needs or lust or must haves
ignore all these or respond to it with love...
when was the last time u were truly grateful when someone did u a great deed...or when was the last time when u feel good about yourself..life is on its own a great blessing to behold and one should seek to find the beauty in it all

i want all the cultures of all lands to be blown about my house as freely as possible, but i refuse to be blown off my feet by any - mahatma gandhi

read something that makes sense.....

Sound advice

With the philosophy that paranoia is a heightened sense of awareness, the following:

Never ask to get seated as close to the black box as possible, it is not funny and they notify security.

Have an extra couple of scanned copies of your passport with your luggage.

Keep the big notes in the left pocket and smaller notes in the right (depending if you are left or right-handed of course).

When you haggle, always smile and act a little mental - they might feel sorry for you and give you a better deal.

If people that you do not want to deal with come to talk to you, are trying to sell you something or hassle you, pretend to be deaf - they generally leave you alone very quickly.

Never say you are an American, if you look like one, dress like one and are one, say you are from Canada, If they ask you where, tell them a very small town 60 miles north of British Columbia, then make up a name.

When travelling through the Middle East, learn the phrase ‘Allah uh Akbar’ means ‘God is Great’. If you hear someone scream it… duck!

When travelling through Asia, always offer your passport with two hands and bow your head down as a sign of courtesy. Just do it, and observe, it is fun to watch and gives you an opportunity to get a sense of a culture quickly.

Carry a handbag (this includes men). Most terrorists do not look gay so you generally get processed at security checks quicker. It is also much quicker for you to put all your metal objects in a bag quicker then trying to remove them from the stupid silly plastic baskets they give you.

bobby chinn

here's a short intro about him
Half Chinese, half Egyptian, raised in England, lived in San Francisco and New York and now based in Hanoi, Bobby Chinn is one of the most respected chefs in Asia. Coming from a family of great cooks Bobby has always been passionate about food and he was taken under the wings of various cutting edge San Francisco chefs - Hubert Keller, Gary Danko, and Traci des Jardine where he learnt his trade. He now owns his own restaurant in Hanoi and his series on Asia is being filmed for Discovery. He has also appeared in the UK on BBC2’s Saturday Kitchen and Full On Food.

spices do to the tongue what colours do to the eyes

why is it that when we try so hard for something it just falls apart
why is it that when we try to avoid a situation it inevitably comes back at us
why is it that junk food seem so tasty and attractive when it is actually bad for us
why is it that when we try to focus we lose focus
why is it that when we try to hold on to something it slips away
why is it that the grass aways seem greener than the other side
why is it that what we want we cannot have
why is it that who we want to love we take for granted
why is it that what we want to know seems a light year away
why is it that time flies when we are having fun and slows when we are suffering
why is it that people have to be born with illness
why is it that people have to prostitude for money
why is it that rich people have more money than kind hearted people
why is it that people have to grow old
why is it that we are selfish by nature and want things our way
why is it that our hearts are centered towards wealth and lust
why is it that we have such a thing called ego
why is it that people want to look good
why is it that we want people to think highly of ourselves
why is it that we cannot be contented with what we have
see the irony in my lines...
if i were a contented person i would not be asking so much questions

hmmm alright let me sum up singaporean's way of succeeding in an exam or test-
the way to succeeding is not by succeeding
but the way to success is when others fail

think about it...that is the selfish way that most of us think when it comes to competing for a place in the top 5 or that desired position in that bank....

anyways i remembered when i was a young lad and that after school i would run home to catch jamie oliver's cook show. i would write, remember every detail and ingredients to his recipe and after rush to the nearest market to buy them. this has once again rekindled the interest in me not that i gave it up or what not but mainly cause i dun have the time....tomo i will try some of the italian recipe that he came up with and with the line he always uses..."loadsa herbs and they just explodes in yr mouth"
his revolutionary food plan is really inspiring and never have i seen a cook that really cares about the health of people that much.....

do what we believe in affect us?
if i believed in God and someone cursed my religion, would he suffer the fate of a non believer?
if i believed in karma and someone were to do something bad to me...would he a non believer of karma suffer the fate of a non believer?
can it be that what i believe in determine the fate of another person's afterlife?....would not that be absurd???......so if i were not to follow a buddhist teachings and i am a muslim...whose fate should i end up with?
what i am saying is that sometimes when someone do something wrong towards u, u can only wish that the greater being that u believe in will do something about it. but if that person who is in the wrong does not believe what u do, but something else...is what u believe in powerful enough to change something?
ok forgive me as i think i am confusing u now...but what i am trying to say is that does who we believe in matter to someone else who believes in another and will he suffer the same consequences????

frustration frustration and frustration....what's the point of putting effort when it does not show results...deja vu...will it be like the last one? sometimes i feel like a failure in life...so it seems...or am i too proud to admit that i take time to learn....i need my retreat....

sometimes our actions come before our thinking.....
the aftermath feelings of feeling stink comes shortly after but hits real hard..
during then u regret every minute of it and wonder how on earth could u master such heartless actions and just stand there to watch the one suffering in pain....
no u can argue that u have been a victim of various such acts but then was it really between u and them or u and the greater good???.....

this is what i do...i do it when i wake up in the morning...i do it when i am with my family...i do it whether i am consciously knowing i did it or not...it is within me and it is me.....when i breathe or sleep it fills my mind.....it comes out naturally from me and it is in my nature...so why are u so skeptical!!!! and who are u to think somewhat else....u are so shallow and naive..

today had dinner at lao pa sa and it was like reminiscing the old times and we laughed off a couple of pranks we all played...u know those kinda feelings that gives you a warm feeling inside yr stomach...
you guys really show me what are the simple pleasures in life....it is like i can forget the complications of the world and enjoy...
here's a song to dedicate to the night

was walking home when someone with only one arm approached me to donate some money and buy something....
suddenly the thought came to my mind, would i be considered heartless if i were to walk past him without giving anything? but then again would my small amount of contribution make a great impact?
although u may say yeah a little is better than nothing...but come on let's face reality....with this small contribution how long is he gonna save????...i am not being mean but just being realistic....look at how much the rich ppl are giving away...but at the end there are still ppl who are wheelchair bounded..etc...
...the look on his face as other people walked past was just so depressing...i cannot even look at him in the face...
having an arm only is really very uncomfortable when it comes to doing things...my wrist/arm is currently on a cast right now and this is just 1/1000000 less handicapped then he is.....
and this is just a small picture the big picture is that there are probably more ppl out there with disablities...well sometimes i wish i can be in a world where everyone is perfect and everything goes yr way....

a castle chateau and a vineyard...arnt they just amazing if u could afford one...

did a research on ian douglas wright and found out he's actually 44 years old and is a vegetarian but breaks that on his travel...despite his age he does seems kinda witty and energetic for his age...probably cause he travels alot...he is my fav personel on travel and discovery...
recently hawaii is frequently shown but i dunno whether it's just the timing that i am on....OAHU was featured and the thought of jumping of at the end of the world over a cliff and into the sea sounds fascinating......although the waves swaying u against the rocks sounds abit dangerous...there's a technic however though...hmmmmm...another destination on my 100 places to see before my time is up...

what is yr fear in life?

not able to say i love you to the person u care the most?

not able to live yr dreams?

pass by yr life without actually doing what you love most?

you cant have the things that u desire?

having no one to care for u?

dying alone?

it is scary enough to think all these...wake up wake up it's only a dream!!!!!!

am i waking up to nothing or do i have to find it