obsession...what is it really?
people say obsession is a young man's game...the dangers of entrapment, foolish-ness, heartache or even crazy-ness....

i feel it once more....once more in a long long time...it is about something different but all together the same reason...can it be? does it make sense?....
i feel more of a passion follower, a learner, someone who wants to be a potentially better person in the shadows of one, but i am afraid of losing heart...

the current fear of being that persistent irritant to the parasites, thats what i call them..that never ending always there will be there was there figure....do they know my good intentions?...or will they never...

can i fool myself in believing i am like that...or is this another hard way of learning that i am like that and am just learning to be a better one...