i think it is really time for a reality check
or rather it was for me
how far i have gone
when i looked back to what i could have done instead
was it a blessing
or was it a curse
to have gone down that path
it made me realise though many things that i would not or could not understand
but looking back at the 2 paths now
which would i prefer
i cannot really choose or say i would be satisfied with either
oh God please help me
in my current pursue
that it is what you intended me to choose....