a slight scratch...maybe enough to resurface the wound...
but then when i thought back about it, it was my idea, the name i mentioned
not to the knowledge of it would the decider have put me in it....
they say whatever happens it is only you who could have allowed it...
so long and yet it lingers...
a small decision or rather a helpless yelp was all i remembered giving...but looked where it took me.....

i think it is really time for a reality check
or rather it was for me
how far i have gone
when i looked back to what i could have done instead
was it a blessing
or was it a curse
to have gone down that path
it made me realise though many things that i would not or could not understand
but looking back at the 2 paths now
which would i prefer
i cannot really choose or say i would be satisfied with either
oh God please help me
in my current pursue
that it is what you intended me to choose....