obsession...what is it really?
people say obsession is a young man's game...the dangers of entrapment, foolish-ness, heartache or even crazy-ness....

i feel it once more....once more in a long long time...it is about something different but all together the same reason...can it be? does it make sense?....
i feel more of a passion follower, a learner, someone who wants to be a potentially better person in the shadows of one, but i am afraid of losing heart...

the current fear of being that persistent irritant to the parasites, thats what i call them..that never ending always there will be there was there figure....do they know my good intentions?...or will they never...

can i fool myself in believing i am like that...or is this another hard way of learning that i am like that and am just learning to be a better one...

when you laugh the world laughs with you
when you cry you cry alone....

what's the point of it all when it is not natural.
it is linked with Dopamine, Fenylethylamine, Endorphin, Adrenaline, Vasopressin and Oxytocin. minus all these do you think you will feel the same?...

"The hormone best known for its role in inducing labor may influence our ability to bond with others", according to researchers at the University of California, San Francisco.

and they even sell oxytocin in bottles to people with deficiency...talking about if it's meant to be it's meant to be......why force it????.....
if one is monogamous, their body produces less of it...

everything that we feel or desire is controlled by our mind or body...so which part of anything is true???...it's all just a body of systems and procedures......