riches i heed not nor man's empty praise

2011-06-01T21:39:00.001+08:00

the moment we chose to observe something out of the infinite possibilities that exist, the wave function of potentials collapses and a specific reality is formed.

2011-05-24T13:56:00.001+08:00

2011-05-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

interesting thoughts:

"does the moon exist because a mouse looks at it?" - Einstein

"decoherence" parallel universes are possibilities - Steve Weinberg

2011-05-15T22:16:00.001+08:00

sure i believe in a God...however not religion. God is not equals to religion. God is defined as the creator of the universe and whereas religion can never reform mankind because it is merely slavery. it is human's inability to comprehend the meaning of God and what it really is due to the fear of not being able to meet the expectations or fulfill the deeds or requirements of a religion.

2011-03-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

2011-03-22T23:48:00.002+08:00

2011-03-03T15:20:00.002+08:00

Cogito ergo sum: But I have convinced myself that there is absolutely nothing in the world, no sky, no earth, no minds, no bodies. Does it now follow that I, too, do not exist? No. If I convinced myself of something [or thought anything at all], then I certainly existed. But there is a deceiver of supreme power and cunning who deliberately and constantly deceives me. In that case, I, too, undoubtedly exist, if he deceives me; and let him deceive me as much as he can, he will never bring it about that I am nothing, so long as I think that I am something. So, after considering everything very thoroughly, I must finally conclude that the proposition, I am, I exist, is necessarily true whenever it is put forward by me or conceived in my mind. (AT VII 25; CSM II 16–17)
- René Descartes

2011-02-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

AIDS...GLOBAL WARMING....whether you guys are true....you are doing a good job at deceiving the world...

2011-02-19T12:08:00.002+08:00

2010-11-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

all the pain of a human life is caused by words, as is all the joy. we create words to define our experiences and those words bring attendant emotions that jerk us around like dogs on a leash. we get seduced by our own mantras (i am a failure...i am lonely...) and we become monuments to them. to stop talking for awhile, then, is to attempt to strip away the power of words, to stop choking ourselves with words, to liberate ourselves from our suffocating mantras.

2010-11-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

We should be very careful about what we believe in about the future, the more you attach yourself to a believe system, and if reality is holographic, you are helping to create it by believing in it. Every thought becomes a reality.
We can change the field of the atoms, and thus directly changing the atoms, which is us because we are made out of atoms. This involves changing of emotions.

2010-09-29T00:32:00.001+08:00

one spark you send to my heart and joy feels me over flowing...it is you that i only need and you that i only what...

2010-09-27T10:13:00.001+08:00

thank you for allowing me this breathing space..u are always there when i cant stand on my two feet...

2010-09-26T00:49:00.001+08:00

i do not expect you to understand my pain...even though you cant see it through me..i just sincerely hope that you are here for me...

2010-09-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

i miss those times...i am so thankful for those times...why cant i continue to dwell in those times then..stop eating me up now..i just pray it will be over in this instance..

2010-09-19T10:38:00.001+08:00

I have a chemical imbalance in my head and its driving me insane…can no one help me…I am trying to run away from it all…trying to escape….when will it end??

2010-09-10T15:34:00.004+08:00

When you develop an infatuation for someone, be it love or hatred you always find a reason to believe that the person's words and actions to have a catastrophic impact on you. It will multiply, grow stronger, suck you in and force you to get addicted to it ways and make you its slave. It doesn't need to be a good reason. A snide remark or simply a hurtful word would suffice, for example. Now, in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to go crazy. But in the haze of infatuation, is what you feel real? Is the scar or mark that it leaves behind there or is it just a mental shadow that it casts to make you believe that it is there? You have to be strong, because whatever situation or feelings you develop is just a tiny fraction to what you perceived to be titanic.

2010-08-22T13:46:00.000+08:00

we all drink english tea leaves from a traditional chinese tea pot don't we???

2010-08-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

you will find that you can live life better if you keep your emotions under control

2010-06-27T17:02:00.001+08:00

It is our weaknesses and wounds that wait for us at the end of our lives, when our strength fades. Those who have played out their lives being strong will find this hardest to accept. But there is no choice and there is even a kind of hope in this. It is our wounds and weakness that have always made us who we are. They are what, to those who know us best, are lovable and human in us. A man cannot live life without this. For what is there at the end is not strength but sadness, and still love and hope. If there is someone to love us for that weak humanity, for that wound we have hidden in all our strength and pride, there can be love; there can be home and hope.

2010-06-27T16:54:00.001+08:00

I was a little skeptical and doubtful about what I could offer and give. However on this trip I realized, we (volunteers) plan to give and give and give in whatever ways we can help to these people, we think about what we are going to build and how noble we are. In the end, it is we who are actually on the receiving end. At the end of each activity or interaction, it is we who learned more, we who benefitted more by realizing how different and how fortunate we are, we who feel more blessed because what we give in life makes us who we are. These people will always be there and probably never leave their community. They have all they need and comfortable with what they have. Going there and being part of that community showed me that there was nothing I could offer except to spend time with them and learn more about their culture and lifestyle. We were the ones who were constantly at awe with the things that they did and food that they eat.
Communities like this share a special uniqueness, that special bond where everyone is family despite not being of the same bloodline.
What I took away from this trip with me was the fact that no matter how different we are in terms of skin color, language, race, religion, the people there are still exceptionately friendly and kind and concern about your well being. I got stung by a hornet on one of the days there and it was quite painful, giving me two days of bad headache and I could not participate in most of the activities. However the village people were really concerned and they kept coming up to me and asking whether I was fine. They even stood around me and watch me as I slept. Who was I to them? They could have just put me aside on a bed and attend to their daily needs but they choose to look after me even though it meant bringing me to their village “witch doctor”. I was very touched and warmed by their gesture and it showed me, that humanism was very real there and like us, they are also human beings with a curiosity for life.

2010-06-24T14:08:00.002+08:00

flipping through the pages i start to ponder if memories are all we have about ourselves...
did i take the time to sit back and reflect on situations or events that are actually bliss or agony in my life or did i just merely cast them aside in my hunger for new adventures...but what have i learnt then????
the stories told mimic the actual shadows of memories I have kept locked up in my mind…never willing or rather intentionally wanting to relive it?...and I kept asking myself why?...am I too happy or satisfied with the way things are?
It does not seem so…
I see him replacing the faces of the characters in the book as I pondered what he would write if he was the author of the book…I never did asked her about her days as it would be too embarrassing…it is something between all of us…it runs in us or maybe just me not to appear sensitive or emotional but how would they feel?...
Is it a good idea for me to ask, am I too selfish to make their memories seem like a treasure concealed in a box and left to rot at the bed of the deepest ocean?....
I cannot bring myself to think about that…all I feel now is that I want to be transported back to the time when I could have changed things…changed the outcome of my ways…but how much could I have change if things that happened now was the reason that shaped my destiny….

2010-06-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

life's necessities are found even in exile, excesses not even in kingdoms. it is the mind that creates wealth, and this goes with us into exile and in the harsh deserts, it is enough to feed the body and revel in the enjoyment of its goods
- seneca

2010-06-23T00:50:00.001+08:00

kindness among strangers is a magic that cannot be commanded!!!!!

2010-05-20T14:59:00.001+08:00

do i really feel it or do i just make myself feel it because it makes me a better person....

2010-04-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

feelings of envy, jealousy, hatred, lust, riches engulfs my weak human being everyday....i feel dissatisfied in everyway...often chasing after things which eats me from inside...
but u are the stone and the rock that never changes...only in you i find what i want, my peace my manna....u watch over my every step..and in your words i find shelter from the cruel and harsh reality of life....
without your presence i would still feel good but with your presence i would have realized that i am been missing out on the world's best treasure...
please give me the strength, give me the grace daily and soften my path for me. for i long to be in your arms every moment. teach me and guide me and hold me....cause u are the only thing that's worth wanting more....
that was a moment we had, at the stones in the sea...for my faith has rewarded me and forever shall it be......

2010-04-21T21:56:00.001+08:00

it's like living a dream in reality....it's heaven i believe...nothing can hold u back...but it comes with a price if u are not careful...turning into a blackhole for all the weak parasites....

2010-03-27T17:15:00.001+08:00

what if our every thought had a mass to it....pulling whatever we wish, dream or crave and exerting gravity on it....

2010-03-10T22:50:00.003+08:00

i see no reason for morality...immorality or what not....what is right what is wrong?...rules are set upon what is considered acceptable in that period of time only....dun we change our values as we age?....how then do we allow unethical practices to become right or brave and courageous actions to be wronged?

2010-03-07T19:52:00.002+08:00

the Vitruvian Man has been one of my latest interest, something which i find particularly disturbing to why i have not been into it earlier.....
hmmmm it seems most of the theories and reflections of the ideas of its time were very much into architectural practices. but what i liked most about this painting or idea if you call it was the image of buildings shaped into the likeness of our body (as in physically and spiritually). it actually believes that our body were divine and that our lives or things should be built in respect to it, which also rings a bell from a text in the bible stating that our bodies are an image of God's. so why do they want it (the building or ideas from a first century Roman architect) to be portrayed in such an image?.....hmmmm this restricts creavity i suppose....if it is actually compared to what we call these days "modern art" which i think is absolutely ridiculous...

2010-03-03T22:17:00.001+08:00

The Self in you is the same as the Self Universal. Whatever powers are manifested throughout the world, those powers exist in germ, in latency, in you.... If you realize the unity of the Self amid the diversities of the Not-Self, then Yoga Will not seem an impossible thing to you.

2010-03-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.

-Albert Einstein

2010-02-23T12:12:00.002+08:00

a slight scratch...maybe enough to resurface the wound...
but then when i thought back about it, it was my idea, the name i mentioned
not to the knowledge of it would the decider have put me in it....
they say whatever happens it is only you who could have allowed it...
so long and yet it lingers...
a small decision or rather a helpless yelp was all i remembered giving...but looked where it took me.....

2010-02-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

i think it is really time for a reality check
or rather it was for me
how far i have gone
when i looked back to what i could have done instead
was it a blessing
or was it a curse
to have gone down that path
it made me realise though many things that i would not or could not understand
but looking back at the 2 paths now
which would i prefer
i cannot really choose or say i would be satisfied with either
oh God please help me
in my current pursue
that it is what you intended me to choose....

2010-01-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

obsession...what is it really?
people say obsession is a young man's game...the dangers of entrapment, foolish-ness, heartache or even crazy-ness....

i feel it once more....once more in a long long time...it is about something different but all together the same reason...can it be? does it make sense?....
i feel more of a passion follower, a learner, someone who wants to be a potentially better person in the shadows of one, but i am afraid of losing heart...

the current fear of being that persistent irritant to the parasites, thats what i call them..that never ending always there will be there was there figure....do they know my good intentions?...or will they never...

can i fool myself in believing i am like that...or is this another hard way of learning that i am like that and am just learning to be a better one...

2010-01-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

when you laugh the world laughs with you
when you cry you cry alone....

2010-01-01T14:48:00.003+08:00

what's the point of it all when it is not natural.
it is linked with Dopamine, Fenylethylamine, Endorphin, Adrenaline, Vasopressin and Oxytocin. minus all these do you think you will feel the same?...

"The hormone best known for its role in inducing labor may influence our ability to bond with others", according to researchers at the University of California, San Francisco.

and they even sell oxytocin in bottles to people with deficiency...talking about if it's meant to be it's meant to be......why force it????.....
if one is monogamous, their body produces less of it...

everything that we feel or desire is controlled by our mind or body...so which part of anything is true???...it's all just a body of systems and procedures......

2009-10-20T10:14:00.001+08:00

Pangur Ban

I and Pangur Ban, my cat,
'Tis a like task we are at;
Hunting mice is his delight,
Hunting words I sit all night.

Better far than praise of men
'Tis to sit with book and pen;
Pangur bears me no ill will;
He, too, plies his simple skill.

'Tis a merry thing to see
At our task how glad are we,
When at home we sit and find
Entertainment to our mind.

Oftentimes a mouse will stray
Into the hero Pangur's way;
Oftentimes my keen thought set
Takes a meaning in its net.

'Gainst the wall he sets his eye
Full and fierce and sharp and sly;
'Gainst the wall of knowledge I
All my little wisdom try.

When a mouse darts from its den.
O how glad is Pangur then!
O what gladness do I prove
When I solve the doubts I love!

So in peace our tasks we ply,
Pangur Ban, my cat and I;
In our arts we find our bliss,
I have mine, and he has his.

Practice every day has made
Pangur perfect in his trade ;
I get wisdom day and night,
Turning Darkness into light.'

- an unknown ninth century monk

2009-09-21T14:02:00.002+08:00

Everyone has faith in God though everyone does not know it. For everyone has faith in himself and that multiplied to the nth degree is God. The sum total of all that lives is God. We may not be God, but we are of God, even as a little drop of water is of the ocean.

When you develope an infatuation for someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky for example. Now in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, its just what you've been searching for all these years.

The only downer is everyones got the same idea, we all travel thousands of miles just to watch tv and check into somewhere with all the comforts of home , and you gotta ask yourself , whats the point of that?

I told myself spreading news was part of a traveller's nature, but if I was being completely honest, I was just like everybody else: shit-scared of the great unknown. Desperate to take a little piece of home with me

-quotes from the beach.

2009-09-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

Denny Crane!
Alan Shore!
Leaders of men!
With bulleyes on our asses!

2009-09-09T20:34:00.001+08:00

the meaning of life is that it ends

2009-09-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

It is a feeling of nothingness.
Something that felt lost after so many years of holding on to it.
Never had I expect this outcome nor felt it should head this way.
Why do things become bitter and twisted when you thought the worst had already happened to you.
You turn your ears to hear happiness but none of it seemed like delight to you.
You then wonder why such matters would happen to them.
You then ponder whether such situations are a matter of sympathy on your part but then you are taken back, disgusted by everything that had escaped your ears.
This is when you want to leave it all behind, to escape of rather hiding from such unfair treatment.
I do not know what I want to hear feel or touch anymore.
Why go for something when it will just not return the amount of love or hope you put into it.
It is redundant, repugnant, and unquestionable and I feel too weak to go through it all.

2009-08-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

i dare do all that may become a man
who dares more is none.

conceal me what i am and be my aid
for such disguise as haply shall become the form of my intent.

remember remember the 5th of november
the gun powder treason and plot
i know of no reason why the gun powder treason
should ever be forgot.

- V for Vendetta

2009-08-20T10:09:00.000+08:00

chios chios chios oh my lovely chios
will you wait on me till i am cured
till the end of my days
when i put away my youthful days
i will want to settle
enjoying my afternoon sound of boiling kettle
in a garden
till i meet God in heaven

2009-08-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

There were so many times when I wanted to act like a brat. To be spoilt, to be throwing my weight around at issues that I think would have done me injustice. But I could never bring myself to do it.
I ask myself why.
Is it because I am too weak?
Ego-listic?
Care about how I would portray myself?
Afraid of being ignored?
Viewed upon as unreasonable?
I often console myself that I do not bother about such matters.
But my mind just responded with I am not like that.
Often in life we are made to do things out of our own character and attitude just because we want to be heard, felt or seen as but that makes us monsters. If it requires you to act rashly or foolish then you are just a smuck.
Be who you are.
Show your true self.
Do not compromise.
Do not let anyone thwart with who you are.
Do not merely just do it because you want to show others that you are strong.
Let the strong be weak and the weak be strong.

2009-07-25T16:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life things from the past that you try to forget or hate comes back to haunt you
It is so unfair
Things that you dread
Things that you hope would vanish and never ever to be reminded of again
Things that would creep into your mind and taunt you the entire day
Making your life miserable
But it was such a long time ago
As long as I could ever remember
Those periods of brain washing
I look at my life now
And back then
Then I realized I was different
I am stronger
I am wiser
This issue is obsolete
I could tackle the problem
It must not affect me
It has been so long
God please help me as I journey through this
To give me the courage that I need
To show that it is I who survives!

2009-07-18T14:57:00.003+08:00

No longer there
No more such feelings of peace and warmth
I really wished I was older and wiser during then
To learn all those valuable lessons from you
Those lazy afternoons when you sit on that red sofa
Waiting to see if I would show interest
That one day you know I will
But you kept waiting
And waiting
And waiting
But I never came to you
But u were still there
And I believe that you are still around
I just want you to know
That those moments
Are dearest to my heart
That if I were to be there now
I would have made used of every moment
To see you
To feel you
To know you
To study you
All I did was to play around the backyard
To explore tunnels and forests
But you knew
You knew that there were more
More important things to learn then
I did not know
But you knew
And that’s how it is
Gone

2009-07-15T23:39:00.004+08:00

Have you ever discovered something spectacular while not intentionally doing it?

I was cooking dinner for myself today when I decided to try this new noodle recipe. After 20mins, it came out fine but I misjudged the quantity of the ingredients as well as the type. Some of the stuff was added too much while others were lacking in flavor.

It tasted neither here nor there and I really could not eat it anymore. So I decided to throw in the fish and the chicken with the remainder of the food.

However when the fish and the chicken were done, it tasted fabulous. It was in between tom yum and sweet sour pork style. The base was not good but the it infused the meat and it brought out new wonders. I was proud of myself.

Now if only I had remembered my any oh how recipe…..oh bother….

2009-07-15T10:47:00.006+08:00

5 places that i want to visit for now

1. Hike the mountains of Nepal (Himalayan mountains)
2. Explore Vietnam
3. Spend one night in the desert of Morocco
4. Surf at Bondi beach in Sydney harbour
5. Visit the Holy Land

6 people that i want to meet for now

1. Ian Wright
2. Anthony Bourdain
3. Booby Chinn
4. Janet Hsieh
5. Bob Blumer
6. Jennifer Adams

2009-07-13T22:52:00.004+08:00

i was doing Groceries today when i realized just how much i was enjoying myself.
rows and rows of herbs and Spices ready for me to cook later for dinner...
it's a sense of delight to me, rather than a chore.
all the planning and choosing. thinking of even planting my own veggies at home...
misenplace excites me....as if i were choosing weapons for a battle...
it's the Adrenaline of being able to control your own life, not only in the kitchen.

2009-07-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

It was underneath then
Devils crippling on beneath the surface where no one could see or smell them
But it consumed me inside out
And as hard as I tried I could not find my way out
To think God had done me wrong
Or it may be that I am not strong

Avoiding paths which led to doom
To find the alternative one looking gloom
Do I lack the key
Or did I lack panache

I thought all was better
Had I realized I made a blunder
As foolish as I am
To allow stupidity to drive me tandem

I had the whole world in my memory
But I gave it always to debauchery
Till now do I fear looking at my reflection
To be greeted with points of my action

When will it stop
To allow me to freely hop
To feel fully of God’s splendor
Will I wonder?

2009-07-09T18:54:00.001+08:00

they laugh at me cause i am different.
i laugh at them cause they are the same.

2009-07-09T18:48:00.001+08:00

nobody is perfect
i am nobody
hence i am perfect

2009-07-04T13:51:00.002+08:00

we can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come

2009-07-01T16:09:00.009+08:00

back from bali and here's how it went!!!

Day 1: Singapore to Jakarta airport(transit) to Bali airport

now we were all rather excited as we had been planning this trip for nearly 5 weeks, dipak, roche, lyon and myself. at the airport i was rather happy to meet barry as it was quite some time since i met up with him. he was suppose to fly air asia i think but we were on garuda.(to the guys: the BEST flight in the air)
touched down and we immediately threw out stuff down and headed for the beach. it was fabulous!!! and it was not as hot as we expected. after we went shopping for beach wear and had a quick dinner.
when it was night time we were all ready to explore kuta(the beach where we stayed). we headed to double 6 where it was only scheduled to open after midnight hence we headed down to hard rock. met barry again this time on LEGIAN street(which happened to be our future night spot from that day forth.
the entire day we were kept being pushed with magic mushroom(a soft core drug), prostitutes, transport and marijuana. we were scared at first when this particular dude came up to us and held on to us in a cab to sell drugs. but after a few days we were rather immune to it.

Day2: Sea Sports

Day 2 was filled with sea activities such as fly fish, Turtle Island and scuba diving. Scuba diving was rather tiring to the mouth as we had to bite on to this rubbery thing which provided us oxygen. After all this we were starving and we managed to find Babi Guling. Yes you seen it right PORK RICE. This dish is the best in Bali and if you were to ever go there please do not miss it. The way they roasted their pig was spectacular and together with the other spices and dishes it was well worth the calories. In the night we headed down to Paddy’s in Legian street to club and the club scene there is very different. We are allowed in with shorts, slippers and bare bodied.

Day 3: Ubud: volcano island, monkey forest, rice fields

Ubud was lovely. The peacefulness and tranquility of that place together with the feeling of being with the locals in their village was amazing. The thing about me is that i love visiting the asian countries villages and really venture and try to get lost among the people. It gives me the thrills and the spirit to ask my way around and even try the local food and practices that they do. Nothing else could substitute that feeling. During the volcano hike, there was this particular little girl, she was dirty and smelly and looked rather hungry. She came to us holding all the key chains and necklaces, wanting us to buy them. My heart just sank, looking at this girl and looking back at me in Singapore, what more did this girl one other than just food and shelter.
After all the cultural visits, we headed down to the village to do some shopping followed by a fantastic seafood dinner by the sunset.

Day 4: Water rafting, Sunset

We went for water rafting today and the water was freezing. By then most of us were down with a slight flu because of Lyon and I was shivering most of the ride. We passed by incredible waterfalls as well as Buddha carved stone from the mountains and noticed that there were a few people who actually lived there. Amazing isn’t it, with nothing but the flowing stream and trees.
After all these, roche and I went to change money as we ran out of it. Believe me what we saw at the money changer was magic, real magic. After changing a particular sum of Sing dollars we were given back their currency with the exchange rate of 7225(which is rocket high). We were delighted, they counted the money once, and we each counted it once so that means thrice altogether. As we gathered the money and counted it again we were short change of the rate and were actually given 6900. The thing is how was that possible when both of us counted it again and again and the money just slipped away. Although we found out later on that they took commission but the fact that money slipped out of their hands and into ours with notes disappearing was mind-blowing. We just looked at each other and smiled at the country.
Later in that evening we managed to catch the sunset and it was amazing, making me think of the song “SUNSET” by café Del mar. We wander around the beach and just fool around until it was pitch black.
After that we went for massages, shopping, a midnight stroll and clubbed. I love BALI to bits.

Day 5: Street Shopping

Today was a day we decided to use the hotel facilities, explore the Kuta streets(the back ends). We made a couple of friends with the aussie kids at the hotel pool and ended up playing the water slide, pool volley ball till we got scolded by the life guards. We were too “havoc” by going down(7 of us) at once into the slide. What a loser! After we went out to the streets getting last minute gifts, temporary tattoos, I even wanted to braid my hair but it was too short and I managed to find my fisherman pants that I had been looking for in this entire trip. We had more Babi Guling, rode behind a motor cycle IN THE STREETS OF BALI and continued our midnight shopping.

Day 6: Bali-Singapore

It was a rather sad day for us as we left Bali and headed home but we could only look for more such adventures in life. We had Balinese food for the last time before checking out and heading to the airport. We really made a big mess of our room and even broke a stone table. Our toilet smelled, our beds messy, and everything that you could possibly find in the hotel room was on the floor.
GOODBYE BALI.

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2009-06-20T21:48:00.001+08:00

Travel philosophy

"If you spend too much time thinking about it, then you miss it! Things come. Keep looking, meet different people, and exchange ideas. There is no rule."

"The first step is in your head. So don't think about it, buy a flight ticket tomorrow and then worry about it on the plane. This is the hardest step."

"There is no secret; there is nothing mysterious about a rucksack. All you need is money, passport, and a change of clothes. Forget the rest."

-Ian Wright

2009-06-17T23:04:00.001+08:00

fear causes you to hesitate and hesitation causes the worst of your fears to come true.

2009-06-17T13:23:00.004+08:00

probably some of you have heard this song on travel and living- a beautiful life

i just think it is such an awesome song and it reminds us really what a beautiful life it is.
just wanna share it with you guys
here is the link if you guys want to listen to it-
http://www.mastersource.com/project/MJttdOHicV0f-PRbIjp14g

Got yourself a ticket to the rest of your life
So starting here and now, find the strength somehow to spread your wings and fly
And who could ask for more than this precious time
With you at my side on this rollercoaster ride, the one thing I know for sure is that

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

Everyday's a new start so give it a try
When all of your predictions, your loves and your commitments
Keep watching the time pass by
And who could ask for more than another chance
You get one everyday, so start and lead the way
Step through another door singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Yes it is

These days I'm lost in the beauty of life
So I'm singing. . .

Na Na Na, it's a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is

Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Na Na Na, what a beautiful life
Yes it is.

2009-05-17T19:45:00.003+08:00

and the night shall be filled with music and the cares that infest the day
one shall fold their tents like the arabs and as silently steal away
- longfellow
in context to my desire of playing sand with my feet in the deserts of morocco, and lying on my back looking up into the heavens.

2009-05-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

a strong man stands up for himself
a stronger man stands up for others
- ben from barnyard

2009-05-01T16:53:00.003+08:00

decided to have some pasta after my gym session just the other night
i particularly enjoyed that pasta as it was simple and done with fresh ingredients
however i was not happy with my meal and let me tell you why
the reason why i or anyone of you go back to that same restaurant is because you like what the chef prepares for you.
i used to have scallops, black olives and huge prawns topped with generous amount of sauce and toppings. that night the scallops were replaced by soft pieces of crabstick skin, tasteless and repugnant. the fish was execrable and hard to bite into.
i can see that the chef was trying to be creative and change the ingredients and the style of the pasta. the red and green peppers were cooked differently. other sauces were added to my meal and the prawns were done differently, boiled instead of the usual baked. other veggies replaced the black olives that i love to chew on.
i do not want any of these, i do not want some chef changing the meal i enjoy every thursday evening to be any different from other thursdays that i would be having it. i want the exact same dish that i had last week or the week before. i want the exact same way my prawns were done before, the same topping that i had the last time or the same ingredient that i grew to love as i had that first meal.
the feeling of not being able to get what you used to enjoy is horrible. please do not change any of that, a good chef is meant to be constant with the same style a dish is being prepared and not come up with brilliant ideas for the meal. if you do something different put it on the menu and call it something else for consumers to order.

2009-04-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

sleepless nights with an incubus haunting me
a feeling of animosity with every look in the mirror
will my neverdown heart tantamount to the ostensily scars i have
or will i achieve epiphany to all these
will i be Irrevocably strong against this insidious enemy
i just pray that God will hear my prayers
please i just want to get it right this time
give me one more chance

Culture Unplugged Video

2009-04-15T23:41:00.001+08:00

this video is linked to my last post - got this from one of my friend's facebook -hope you guys get what i was trying to say earlier

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

2009-04-13T17:46:00.005+08:00

recently i went to an ordinary restaurant to have a decent meal. it was nothing fancy and no staff were there to treat me as a protagonist. it was just a simple walk in and order and just eat and talk to your friends kind. however the place was off a certain standard and clean and well known for its delicacy. at the end of it when the bill came it was over a 3 digit figure. i thought to myself, oh fine nice atmosphere comfortable seats great food and decent music. then as i paid the bill(heart aches as i am a poor man) i realized- is it right for someone to charge this much for food?
basically to me i believe food is a necessity and everyone is entitled to have whatever they feel like eating, be it shushi, dim sum, french cuisine or italian pasta. to charge someone so much for just a meal like that, what's up with one's conscious!
ok you might argue the difference between seating in a coffeeshop and a restaurant but at the end of the day food is just food- stop charging so much money because your food taste nicer then the normal but just use it to promote good tasting food.
i am not an altruist but i am cynical when it comes to such matters. for those who upon reading this post say what a loser, one has to pay good money to have good food then i tell u guys do not be a hypocrite the next time you complain about the steepness of the price of a meal or the extra charges that make up 20% of your total bill.
cant a person who lives in a single room flat be able to have the same meal as a person who lives in a 3 storey house? what you think we are living in the medieval times where KINGS and QUEENS exist. food should not and never be something to differentiate between people who have money or not.

2009-04-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

was walking home from dinner today when i decided to visit the sky garden around my house area. taking the lift up and then looking out into the city was really great. from up there, everything below seemed so small, so insignificant. so unharmed, as though everything was at peace with one other. the faint car horns, the bus engines running, bicycle bells were only heard as a tinkle. everything seemed so quiet.
and then i asked God, is this what you do everyday? sit on your throne and be ignorant to our pleads and cries. hearing just the tiny drops of sound on earth and not be bothered.
after awhile i took the lift back down and headed home. while walking back i looked up at where i was earlier and it was as though God shot me back with a reply. i soon realized how high i was just now and everything above seems so far away and so complicated. there were so many webs to unravel and i felt sooo small just comparing myself to the above. now i know what he meant. who am i to question what he does and how little do i know of his mysteries and work.

2009-04-01T00:11:00.003+08:00

i managed to hear from someone in my gym that in smallville season 6 JUSTICE LEAGUE appears in it
as i am such a huge fan of DC and marvel i would like to share the videos with you guys...enjoy
part 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVU4IzexGFk
part 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEnWXOCsp2g
part 3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdILQxTTdFA
part 4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8_0eXwuYEA
part 5
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTBO7DGQmN4

SUPERHEROES

2009-03-28T21:04:00.002+08:00

superheroes

everyone is a super hero. i believe in super heroes. i believe in Superman, i believe in Spiderman. in this 20th century who is not one?
look at the way we travel from one place to another with such ease. look at the way technology has evolved, we talking to another person millions of miles away.
someone from a thousand years ago would bow to us if not call us gods.
however in times like ours, how do we make sure we confront it responsibly. do we have the right values of human life, the very virtues our fathers and mothers have taught us to obey since we were young. is it enough? human rights? human dignity? human immortality?
the ramifications or rather the reflection of our actions or words or decision made towards others. superheroes(learders, parents) must sometimes learn that it is the marks you leave along the side of the road, the impressions that people have of you is what counts.
quoted by mahatma gandh- i am a hindu as well as a muslim, a christian as well as a jew or a buddhist. we learn that those among us that are not so colourful are heroes and those that are quite vivid are flawed and quite ordinary. no matter how powerful u are, it is the new bards that will be leading us and bringing us to whatever we teach them now.

2009-03-24T21:57:00.002+08:00

on my way home today, along the curb at the side of the road, i tried to balance myself on that probably 3inch? pavement. cars zoom passed me at the side and there must have been alot of hornings but i had my earpiece on. it was sooo dangerous the whole incident when i looked back at it but in the short moment i was enjoying myself. i could have been knocked down if i had lost balance and lose my life but at that time i did not care. all i cared was just balancing on that narrow pavement. it was fun and i was reminded of my primary school days balancing on the balance walk in the fitness corner.

2009-03-22T13:24:00.002+08:00

getting closer?
sometimes getting to know an individual better invites the surprise of that person's bad side. am i escaping from reality or am i too afraid to face it. can i live with just seeing faces brushing me by and pretending that all is good. call me an anomaly because of the fear that i have. but can u blame me for i have put up with too much rubbish and insincerity.

2009-03-21T09:44:00.002+08:00

why do i keep worrying about what will happen the next day or why do i keep worrying about what will happen to something that i have no complete control over or something that is evitable.
sometimes events will get us so planned out and worried that we lose focus of what we are having now or what we are living NOW.
the past- u cannot change it
the future- depends on what you do now
so u see whatever future u want depends on what u actually do now and what u live in the moment for....
dun get to carried forward but just learn how to take it all in and enjoy every moment that u are in now....

2009-03-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes it is what u least expect and want that really clings on to you in life
u wait and build your hope up on things that u expect to be hopeful
u get disappointed and keep moving on to find a circle to be a sub-set of
yet once in a while u feel lost or alone or sad or rejected
in these times u really get to find out about oneself and that it was never better u and them but u living within the different circles of truths and wants, needs or lust or must haves
ignore all these or respond to it with love...
when was the last time u were truly grateful when someone did u a great deed...or when was the last time when u feel good about yourself..life is on its own a great blessing to behold and one should seek to find the beauty in it all

2009-03-10T22:51:00.001+08:00

i want all the cultures of all lands to be blown about my house as freely as possible, but i refuse to be blown off my feet by any - mahatma gandhi

2009-02-23T23:16:00.001+08:00

read something that makes sense.....

Sound advice

With the philosophy that paranoia is a heightened sense of awareness, the following:

Never ask to get seated as close to the black box as possible, it is not funny and they notify security.

Have an extra couple of scanned copies of your passport with your luggage.

Keep the big notes in the left pocket and smaller notes in the right (depending if you are left or right-handed of course).

When you haggle, always smile and act a little mental - they might feel sorry for you and give you a better deal.

If people that you do not want to deal with come to talk to you, are trying to sell you something or hassle you, pretend to be deaf - they generally leave you alone very quickly.

Never say you are an American, if you look like one, dress like one and are one, say you are from Canada, If they ask you where, tell them a very small town 60 miles north of British Columbia, then make up a name.

When travelling through the Middle East, learn the phrase ‘Allah uh Akbar’ means ‘God is Great’. If you hear someone scream it… duck!

When travelling through Asia, always offer your passport with two hands and bow your head down as a sign of courtesy. Just do it, and observe, it is fun to watch and gives you an opportunity to get a sense of a culture quickly.

Carry a handbag (this includes men). Most terrorists do not look gay so you generally get processed at security checks quicker. It is also much quicker for you to put all your metal objects in a bag quicker then trying to remove them from the stupid silly plastic baskets they give you.

2009-02-23T01:09:00.004+08:00

bobby chinn

here's a short intro about him
Half Chinese, half Egyptian, raised in England, lived in San Francisco and New York and now based in Hanoi, Bobby Chinn is one of the most respected chefs in Asia. Coming from a family of great cooks Bobby has always been passionate about food and he was taken under the wings of various cutting edge San Francisco chefs - Hubert Keller, Gary Danko, and Traci des Jardine where he learnt his trade. He now owns his own restaurant in Hanoi and his series on Asia is being filmed for Discovery. He has also appeared in the UK on BBC2’s Saturday Kitchen and Full On Food.

2009-02-05T22:49:00.001+08:00

spices do to the tongue what colours do to the eyes

2009-02-04T23:51:00.005+08:00

why is it that when we try so hard for something it just falls apart
why is it that when we try to avoid a situation it inevitably comes back at us
why is it that junk food seem so tasty and attractive when it is actually bad for us
why is it that when we try to focus we lose focus
why is it that when we try to hold on to something it slips away
why is it that the grass aways seem greener than the other side
why is it that what we want we cannot have
why is it that who we want to love we take for granted
why is it that what we want to know seems a light year away
why is it that time flies when we are having fun and slows when we are suffering
why is it that people have to be born with illness
why is it that people have to prostitude for money
why is it that rich people have more money than kind hearted people
why is it that people have to grow old
why is it that we are selfish by nature and want things our way
why is it that our hearts are centered towards wealth and lust
why is it that we have such a thing called ego
why is it that people want to look good
why is it that we want people to think highly of ourselves
why is it that we cannot be contented with what we have
see the irony in my lines...
if i were a contented person i would not be asking so much questions

2009-02-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

hmmm alright let me sum up singaporean's way of succeeding in an exam or test-
the way to succeeding is not by succeeding
but the way to success is when others fail

think about it...that is the selfish way that most of us think when it comes to competing for a place in the top 5 or that desired position in that bank....

anyways i remembered when i was a young lad and that after school i would run home to catch jamie oliver's cook show. i would write, remember every detail and ingredients to his recipe and after rush to the nearest market to buy them. this has once again rekindled the interest in me not that i gave it up or what not but mainly cause i dun have the time....tomo i will try some of the italian recipe that he came up with and with the line he always uses..."loadsa herbs and they just explodes in yr mouth"
his revolutionary food plan is really inspiring and never have i seen a cook that really cares about the health of people that much.....

2009-01-31T00:36:00.004+08:00

do what we believe in affect us?
if i believed in God and someone cursed my religion, would he suffer the fate of a non believer?
if i believed in karma and someone were to do something bad to me...would he a non believer of karma suffer the fate of a non believer?
can it be that what i believe in determine the fate of another person's afterlife?....would not that be absurd???......so if i were not to follow a buddhist teachings and i am a muslim...whose fate should i end up with?
what i am saying is that sometimes when someone do something wrong towards u, u can only wish that the greater being that u believe in will do something about it. but if that person who is in the wrong does not believe what u do, but something else...is what u believe in powerful enough to change something?
ok forgive me as i think i am confusing u now...but what i am trying to say is that does who we believe in matter to someone else who believes in another and will he suffer the same consequences????

2009-01-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

frustration frustration and frustration....what's the point of putting effort when it does not show results...deja vu...will it be like the last one? sometimes i feel like a failure in life...so it seems...or am i too proud to admit that i take time to learn....i need my retreat....

2009-01-21T17:08:00.003+08:00

sometimes our actions come before our thinking.....
the aftermath feelings of feeling stink comes shortly after but hits real hard..
during then u regret every minute of it and wonder how on earth could u master such heartless actions and just stand there to watch the one suffering in pain....
no u can argue that u have been a victim of various such acts but then was it really between u and them or u and the greater good???.....

2009-01-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

this is what i do...i do it when i wake up in the morning...i do it when i am with my family...i do it whether i am consciously knowing i did it or not...it is within me and it is me.....when i breathe or sleep it fills my mind.....it comes out naturally from me and it is in my nature...so why are u so skeptical!!!! and who are u to think somewhat else....u are so shallow and naive..

2009-01-17T00:54:00.003+08:00

today had dinner at lao pa sa and it was like reminiscing the old times and we laughed off a couple of pranks we all played...u know those kinda feelings that gives you a warm feeling inside yr stomach...
you guys really show me what are the simple pleasures in life....it is like i can forget the complications of the world and enjoy...
here's a song to dedicate to the night

2009-01-15T16:57:00.004+08:00

was walking home when someone with only one arm approached me to donate some money and buy something....
suddenly the thought came to my mind, would i be considered heartless if i were to walk past him without giving anything? but then again would my small amount of contribution make a great impact?
although u may say yeah a little is better than nothing...but come on let's face reality....with this small contribution how long is he gonna save????...i am not being mean but just being realistic....look at how much the rich ppl are giving away...but at the end there are still ppl who are wheelchair bounded..etc...
...the look on his face as other people walked past was just so depressing...i cannot even look at him in the face...
having an arm only is really very uncomfortable when it comes to doing things...my wrist/arm is currently on a cast right now and this is just 1/1000000 less handicapped then he is.....
and this is just a small picture the big picture is that there are probably more ppl out there with disablities...well sometimes i wish i can be in a world where everyone is perfect and everything goes yr way....

2009-01-13T11:15:00.001+08:00

a castle chateau and a vineyard...arnt they just amazing if u could afford one...

2009-01-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

did a research on ian douglas wright and found out he's actually 44 years old and is a vegetarian but breaks that on his travel...despite his age he does seems kinda witty and energetic for his age...probably cause he travels alot...he is my fav personel on travel and discovery...
recently hawaii is frequently shown but i dunno whether it's just the timing that i am on....OAHU was featured and the thought of jumping of at the end of the world over a cliff and into the sea sounds fascinating......although the waves swaying u against the rocks sounds abit dangerous...there's a technic however though...hmmmmm...another destination on my 100 places to see before my time is up...

2009-01-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

what is yr fear in life?

not able to say i love you to the person u care the most?

not able to live yr dreams?

pass by yr life without actually doing what you love most?

you cant have the things that u desire?

having no one to care for u?

dying alone?

it is scary enough to think all these...wake up wake up it's only a dream!!!!!!

2009-01-08T15:30:00.001+08:00

am i waking up to nothing or do i have to find it

2009-01-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes life is really that simple and easy going...why do we have to take another turn and end up making alot of trouble for ourselves...do i lack good judgement or is my ego and pride taking over myself....

but can u blame me for avoiding the end of the road?

or rather am i too scared to face life?

is there such a thing as karma?

are we really in control of our lives?

2009-01-06T21:54:00.012+08:00

ok i did not really have alot of time since i was back from my holiday to journal on my trip, this time round i went 3 places, italy first followed by switzerland and the best for last paris.

italy was really amazing, the structure and architecture of it all was simple Astounding!!!! every statue and paintings are so detailed. i went to pay a visit to the pope at saint peter's square in the vatican city as well as battle a Gladiator at the Colosseum.

At pisa, the famous leaning tower, the beautiful tour guide had the pleasure of telling us that every building in that place was actually leaning and not only that tower. after that we went down to florance. florance was very very pretty, cool air and the streets looked very different from singapore.

Venice was exactly the last four letters of the word itself...or even more. i managed to get on a gondola which is another name for water-taxi as the young italian man who claims to be 40 but only looks 25 row us throughout the city. i told myself next time when i were to get married, this would definitely be the place where i would want my wedding shots to be shot at. floods are common and the highest it ever went was above ankle's length if you were to be standing on the street. venice was the coldest and the standard of living is ridiculous, a bottle of coke can cost u 8euros, which is 16 sing dollars. oh boy!

italy overall was just breathtaking, the north and south italians look rather different. my coach driver was from napoli and he really looked, spoke and behaved like a mafia. he rarely smiles and often makes noise if we did not follow instructions.

after that we proceed on a 6plus hour journey to switzerland to see clear skies and ice mountains. Jungfrau was cancelled as there was a snow storm that morning but we managed to climb MT Titles which was just 500 metres shorter. Interlaken was the place where i stayed and there was this lovely old couple who owned a shop where i bought many stuff from. they happened to travel to singapore once during their younger days so we had a chat about the difference. the handmade clocks and toys were world class marksmanship. after that we had dinner at this really really fun and whacky place called bebbis. if u were to be at interlaken please visit the owner of the restaurant. he is well-built, hilarious and just makes you feel at home. interlaken- a great place to retire :D

after afew days in switzerland it was time to take a 10hour coach ride to PARIS. in paris, couples are kissing everywhere and the history of the place is just so vivid. in france, the art pieces that they keep happen to come from different parts of the world such as Greece, Italy and even Egypt. i went to the eiffel tower and that night it was blue in colour. i was also at the touch where the accident that princess diana had been in took place. the glass pyramid where the da vinci code was filmed and versailles and notre dame was really crowded but it was worth the wait as the art pieces was really top notch. i have never seen such beautiful work of the hand before in my life. the best of paris was still shopping at the champs Elysees, it's the most expensive and famous shopping street in the whole of europe. the LV there is a 3 level high building where u can most likely get the design that you want. if you are there you have to catch the moulin rouge. it is splendid and the costume and play is just so enjoyable. however it cost 125euros, which is the most expensive play i have ever watched....but worth every cent of it.

i could not bear to leave europe, it is such a lovely place. The cost of living is really high, a decent meal in a restaurant can cost you around 60euros, it is cheap but do not forget about the exchange rate, it is 2 times. the only cheap things you can get over there is LV among all the branded stuff. if you have the time, please visit there.

2008-12-16T00:37:00.001+08:00

integration is a lie

2008-12-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes in life knowing what u can do is not enough...believing in it is what makes it real

seeing is believing is not true

you have to believe to see it

2008-12-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

i miss my friends
i am broke
i am exhausted
i have regrets
i miss football

well does not this make my life all the more better

to know that the reason i miss my friends are because they are important to me

to be broke so no one can cheat my money and have to worry about it

to be exhausted so as to enjoy the cosy comfort of my room

to have regrets so that i can be a better man tomorrow

to miss football knowing there's something in life i enjoy doing.....

the next time u miss something....think about the reasons and benefits of it

2008-12-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

will the different make a difference??

2008-11-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

had a random thought while floating on a pool one day

everytime i took a breathe of air i stay afloat
and everytime i exhale i begin to sink

i know this is science but arnt u amazed that it is because of a small amount of air

this example shows us how with little effort we can determine whether to sink or float in life....

next time when u are "sinking" in life....maybe just try to "inhale" and u will still afloat

2008-11-30T01:29:00.003+08:00

ok i finally cannot take it anymore
i bought the ski mountain valley set and it was so soooooo beautiful....and as well as a nutcracker

2008-11-28T14:15:00.003+08:00

went to watch das experimental:the black box yesterday
the play was very very good and it really pushes yr senses to the extreme
basically it is a play about a group of volunteers getting paid 7k to feel what it's like to be in prison for 14days...half will get to be the guards and half would be the prisoners....
the prisoners thinking that it was just an experiment was not serious about it all and started fooling around with the guards...
the guards started feeling threatened and began torturing them and treating them as real prisoners...which they were not allowed to....
the rest of the play was about how they cope with the pressure of it all and still managed not to get brain washed....
blood gunshots screaming were all there....
upon 5 stars i would give it 4...the last date is this saturday...
it is worth yr money..

2008-11-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

can we not have it and still survive?

love is a huge thing

2008-11-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

when was the last time you listened to yourself

even when someone says something the thought will lift a blue print in my mind

sometimes just be still and feel

2008-11-23T01:22:00.001+08:00

somtimes i ask myself....what do i have here....often the answer is nothing...

is that the reason why i want to leave???

2008-11-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

finally got it....cant wait...